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I journal every single night. It keeps me from going crazy, and lets me have a moment to myself, just me and God to sort out my thoughts and my day. Sometimes it's the only way I am ever able to sleep at night. It quiets my brain and lets me get everything out and into the hands of the One who can hold it all.

Lately, however, I have not had a journal. Therefore, while I have been still taking the time to quiet my brain before I go to sleep, I am having to do so audibly. I am not so good at the quiet meditation. That's why I started writing in the first place -- because writing forces my thoughts to slow down to the speed which I can write.

All of this to simply say that my heart is broken for you. I think it probably would be broken anyways, but quiet meditation sometimes makes the emotions stronger. I want to help. I do. But, I don't know how, and you won't let me.

Neither one of you will, actually, and I don't understand. Next to God Himself, my friends are the only ones that keep me sane. I cannot possibly imagine being so hurt and so calloused that you cannot trust a little tiny mouse to pull the thorn out of your paw. .

Anyways, I hope you all know that I do love you. And I'm here, if you need me.

Maybe that's all you need to know.