The inner workings of my brain confuse even me.

...Eleanor Rigby

waits at the window

wearing a face that she keeps in a jar by the door.

Who is it for?...

Sometimes, I have these major questions that run through my head when I'm not thinking about general things, like "What do I want to eat?" or "There is a car coming, I should not walk in the road." Here is the latest thread:

Do you have to accept someone's love in order to be loved?

Why do I have a tendency to not allow people to show me love if I don't feel I've earned it?

Why do I feel I need to earn the love in the first place?

Can you even earn someone's love?

Is it more difficult to either:

1. Live in a state of feeling like all the love that you have is "earned", but feel at risk of losing the love if you are not worthy

-or-

2. Accept love that you do not feel that you have earned and feel guilty about it?

Look at all the lonely people

Where do they all come from?